228.6lb

Three and a half pounds off! that's brilliant. After a week of thinking that my on coming period could give me a smaller that usual loss thus wee, I'm very pleased. I have to keep telling myself that these really good losses can't continue, but I find it hard not to get my hopes up because I've done so well until now. That's now thirty-two pounds off in two months. Two stone ant four pounds in just nine weeks! Totally fabulous results. And TMM is just as pleased for me as I am. He didn't ask what the result was when I came back from the bathroom after my scales hop. He prefers that I offer the information. It's not that he's not tinterested, he just wants me to tell im in my own time, just incase I'm dealing with a result I'm disappointed with. But not today!

I feel as if I am on the verge of my period arriving, though it hasn't yet. Perhaps it will come in a day or two, and then be over before my next scales hop. then it will cause as little disruption as possible in my weekly results. I'm focused on losing the next five pounds as quickly as possible, as that would take me out of the sixteens and into the fifteens. I must get just below 224lb. So that's the next milestone. Well, actually, the next mile stone is to lose three pounds, and hit two and a half stone loss.

I like to think in terms of mini milestone goals. It keeps my mind off the big picture, and makes the whole thing seem attainable. If I was to let myself think about wanting to lose about 120lbs in total, I'd either shit myself or have a nervous breakdown. Or both. But if I just think about the next few pounds to a new stone marker, or the next half stone off, then even at a pound a week, those things could happen within a few weeks. And once a few goals have gone past, before I know it, I'm a couple more stone closer to my over all goal. It's not easy to think like that all the time. It is very possible to get overwhelmed by the sheer amount of weight that I still have to lose. But at least I can reign in the dispair sometimes, and think small instead of big. Mind you, having started at 260lb, and now being 228, it's easy to start getting ahead of myself, and start thinking of getting below 200lb again, for the first time in a couple of years. But I must contain myself!

So, no more thinking too far into the future. I will concentrate on how well I did this week, and in this past two months. I will celebrate the present. I feel good. I look better than I have for ages, and I'm not huffing and puffing anywhere near as much as I was when walking for the train. All great reasons to continue just doing what I'm doing.