Potty talk

It's that usual Saturday night, pre weigh in, nervous feeling again. I know I've done okay this week, but not quite as well as I normally do. I went a little over some days. Not much, but enough to make me doubt myself. Have I done enough to have a loss? At Mum's, last night, I ate pasta, which I wouldn't do at home. I think I allowed enough cals for it, but it's hard to say. And not being in charge of the cooking, I don't know exactly what went into the tomato and mince beef sauce that she made, though I know she used 5% fat mince. I could have asked her what all went in to it, she'd have been more than happy to tell me, but I didn't want to come across as too pedantic about the whole thing.

Breakfast was a different matter. I knew exactly what went into that. Three eggs each, scrambled, and 170g of smoked salmon between us. It was the start of quite a satifying day, foodwise. For lunch, I had the rest of the chowder that I'd made a couple of days ago. It wasn't a massive portion, but it was heavy enough as far as colories were concerned. It was filling though, and I was able to get through till teatime without eating anything else.

For dinner I made a chic pea and roast red pepper curry. It was a recipe that I got from a blog that sends me updates every day. It bugs me that it was supposed to be a healthy recipe, yet even if I only ate the advised portion (and let's face it, that's not likely to happen) it would have been quite high calorie. There can be some quite high cal ingedients in a lot of these suggested "healthy" recipes. Thankfully though, I'm not one to stick to a recipe to the letter. I will happily take out the oil, using One Cal spray oil instead, and usually avoid dairy products, or at least substitute in a low fat version. This curry wasn't too hard to adapt, but some of the so called healthy ideas in the blog posts are for buns and bread. They are all still quite high, and I think, unhealthy. But then, I don't have a normal appetite. I usually want to eat the whole thing, especially if it's something really sweet and tasty, and can never stop at one slice, or even two. Maybe these recipes are healthy if you don't eat all round you, like I do, given the opportunity.

As well as going a bit over on some days, another concern that I have for my success this week is that I feel like I need to do a big poo. I haven't been constipated as such, but I also haven't felt the satisfaction of a job well done either, if you know what I mean. I love to "get a load off" tonight, and be lighter for the morning. I know it's very superficial, but it would make me happier.