Getting back to losing a few gained pounds and preparing for London marathon.
Sunday, 28 August 2016
189.4lb
I lost two pounds this week, and I'm well chuffed. As frustrated as I am to see my losses slow down substantially, I keep telling myself that it's the way weight loss works, and I'm still doing really, really well. As TMM said this morning, "You can't keep losing four pounds a week or you'd die!" He does have a way with words, that man :-) And of course, he's right. Doesn't mean I have to like it. Why can't I just lose four pounds a week until I get to ten stone? Hmmm? Is that so unreasonable? Apparently it is. Dang!
175 days of being food conscious. That's a week and a half off six months and so far my attention span remains intact. If I just get on with things, and lose a sensible enough amount before my gung ho phase finishes, and my standard complacency kicks in, I should do okay. It's definitely my biggest fear, that I have to go through this all over again in a couple of years, because I enter the yoyo cycle again. For what? Like the fifth time? I'm so bored with myself and my inability to get to a healthy weight and then maintain it. Not this time! Seriously. I'm done. I'm getting healthy, and gonna stay healthy.
In an ideal world, I will get to a sensible weight and then go paleo again. I loved eating like that, and I genuinely believe it's very good for me. But not easy for me to lose weight on. Others might manage to, but I found that I didn't. So I'll save it until I'm where I want to be, weight wise. I love the idea of using less processed foods. I've already cut down a lot on those. Prepacked cooked ham especially was something I ate far too much of. I found that when I was following plans like Slimming World, because things like cooked ham were either low in syns, or syn free, I'd eat a lot of it. But it's not good to eat too much of anything, even if it's low cal, and ham has so much salt and sugar added to it, it's nutritional value is surely questionable. But that's just me. Unable to eat anything in moderation. Give me a choice between leaving some in the pack, or finishing the whole lot, I'll be the one scoffing the lot! Even if it's a 400g pack of cooked ham. I think I even did a 750g tub once in one sitting. Tell me again how I got to be 289lbs at my heaviest!
Today, I ate most of my calorie allowance after I weighed myself, in a brunch frittata the size of a small European country (I'm thinking somewhere tiny like Vatican City) made up of left overs from the fridge. I do like using up food so it doesn't get thrown out, and the remains of last week's pork mince cottage pie, with a few small left over boiled potatoes, in a frittata might not sound great, but it tasted bloody amazing. TMM was not of a mind to join me in my culinary experiment (boring porridge for him. Seriously Dude, live a little :-D ) So it was all mine!!!
Yeah, okay. That photo does not do it justice. It was far nicer than it looks. The feta on top does the pic no favours :-) There was lots of it and it was jolly tasty. No complaints here!
That's it for today, except to say that I'm wearing a skirt, for the first time in yonks, and I actually look quite nice. It's a boost to the old confidence. (BTW, the skirt cost me $2.00 in a charity shop (that should be a pound symbol. Why doesn't my Kindle keyboard have a pound symbol???)
Tuesday, 23 August 2016
Changes
Sunday, 21 August 2016
191.4lb
It's a lot easier to write that blog title when it indicates a loss. No prevarication this week about writing a post. Last week, it was very hard to be honest. It was harder than it should be to just write a couple of numbers down. Okay, I know that I'm uber invested in this weight loss process, but who am I kidding if I can't own up, out loud as it were, to what the scales say?
I love the system I've got for the titles on my Sunday blogs. It's lovely to see the posts with my weight as a header, and to see that the numbers are steadily decreasing. The downside of that is that on the two occasions that I've gained half a pound, that's equally apparent. And it's hard to look at. Still, twice in five and a half months, with almost 70lb / five stone gone? Not too shabby!
This week's loss of two pounds was still a disappointment to me. Sure, I know that's greedy. A loss, is a loss, is a loss. And, as I keep trying to tell myself, I can't keep losing a stone a month ("Why the Hell not???" my inner diva screams.) But I wanted, I SO wanted, to lose four pounds this week to get under 190lb, and to get well under the five stone off mark. I had a massive sense of entitlement about it. I deserved it. I shouldn't have gained last week, so I should have lost big this week. Right? Hmmm, what do you mean that's not the way this shit works? Dang!
So, next week it is then. I'm going under 190 next week :-)
I'm currently in Starbucks. TMM is working today, and he decided to go to The Bucks for brekkie. I decided to join him. He had fruit toast and I couldn't resist having some too. Mmmm. Fruit toast, butter (real butter!!!) and strawberry jam. I'm going to walk home from here, so that's a half hour at a brisk pace. It will burn off about half the calories that I've just consumedif I'm lucky. Guess. Go on, guess how many cals I've just scarfed I looked it up on mfp. Starbucks Fruit Toast, no toppings? 480 cals. The butter and jam on top added another 200. That's almost as much as my Sunday Fry Up at our regular cafe. Still, it was nice to see TMM before he started work, and the walk will be a bit of exercise, and I'll just count it as today's treat. No dark choc for me later, and a light lunch of the rest of the broc and cauli soup I made yesterday.
All in all, I'm in a good mood. I may not have had the uber loss that I wanted, but I still lost, I'm still 69.2lb lighter than I was when I started all this again on Sunday the 6th March. I'm wearing size 18 jeans, not size 24, and I'm definately smiling more. My back and knees don't hurt and TMM doesn't think I'm going to have a heart attack when I walk to the train staion or die in my sleep because of sleep apnea.
It's all good :-D
Thursday, 18 August 2016
The dreaded plateau
2 .Drink water
3. Eat less crap
Tuesday, 16 August 2016
All is good in Terry's world of the volumnetrically challenged
I have many reasons for feeling in fine fettle today. I need new undercrackers! All of my bras and knickers are too big for me. It's a great problem to have. But I resent spending money on stuff that, all things being equal, won't fit properly in a couple of months. So, cheapies at ASDA, here I come.
Monday, 15 August 2016
193.6lb
Wednesday, 10 August 2016
I'm not over weight. I'm under tall.
I worked it out. If I was 6' 2", my BMI would be spot on :-)
It's all about where I'm coming from
This weight loss lark, and how we feel about it and ourselves, really is all a matter of perspective. I'm five foot two, and want to be a comfortable size 12 and weigh under 10 stone to be on the correct weight/height range. I'm currently 13st 11lb, wearing size 18 jeans. And I feel fabulous. For me, it's all about where I'm coming from. If I was on my way up from a lower weight, I'd be feeling like shite, but because I'm on the way down, almost fourteen stone feels amazing in comparison to almost nineteen stone. So weird as it sounds, there've been times when I've weighed lighter than I do now, but felt worse. And even though my BMI is still far within the obese range, I feel great. To be honest, I'm just delighted to be out of the morbidly obese range. So today, I'm walking with my head held high, a spring in my step and a smile on my face. It's gonna be a good day, my fellow fat banishers. Hope y'all feel the same.
Tuesday, 9 August 2016
After the funeral
Monday, 8 August 2016
Out of routine
Sunday, 7 August 2016
193lb
Three and a half more pounds bite the dust, and I'm now well into the thirteen stone mark. I feel amazing. Thirteen stone eleven pounds sounds like "normal" fat to me, rather than "obese" fat. It doesn't matter that I am still technically obese. After being over eighteen and a half stone when I started five months ago, and nineteen and a half when I started WW On line in 2011, and twenty and a half stone when I started WW a few years before that, believe me when I tell you that thirteen stone and odd pounds feels nothing like obese. It feels fabulous.
Today marks the five month mark of my weight loss efforts (this time around. My last time around. I promise to myself that this is it. I'm staying healthy this time.) I am two pounds away from having lost five stone in those five months. And isn't that something! It's amzing to me that I've come so far, so quickly. I'm a wee bit in love with myself today :-) I've looked at myself in the mirror today, and I genuinely like what I see. That's not to say I'm not still a work in progress, but I can almost see the end in sight, even if it is still a wee bit off yet.
I'm getting a lot of support and encouragement from the new facebook page that I'm a part of. It's a real shame the Weightwatchers are shutting down all or some of their community website, but as that's what was behind the inception of this new FB group, I can only be grateful that it happened. I'd long since lost touch with quite a few of my old WW contacts, and now I'm chatting to loads of them again. There are updates on how everyone is doing, what sort of plan they are using to lose weight, whether people are losing, gaining or maintaining, and pictures and recipes of food we're all eating. I even showed the photo above, to show that my bones are finally staring to show through my blubber. That's an honest to God clavicle, right there! Who knows, maybe I'll even eventually find my ribs!
Thirteen stone eleven. I still can't quite believe it! I'm amazed. And I just haven't been able to stop grinning :-D
Monday, 1 August 2016
Tuesday - Saturday.
Despite promises to myself to be on track all week, I finished a couple of hundred calories over the limit on two days. After the 900 calorie fry up for lunch on Monday, I did not partake of the gorgeous looking Jaffa Cake cake in the cafe at the walled garden. TMM had a piece and it looked lovely, but I was determined to use my remaining calories for good. The groceries had been delivered, so there was plenty of real food in the house. I boiled two large turkey drumsticks, made the stock in to soup, and ate pretty much all the meat from one leg. (I love the dark meat. Could literally eat it all day.) Although everything I ate after the fry was healthy, it was still over my daily allowance. So I did better the rest of the week, but always felt like I was on the back foot, as of catching up wasn't really possible. I'm hopeful that I've done okay. I have to get into the thirteens on Sunday.
However, I defo won't lose a stone this month. I'd need to lose six pounds this week for that to happen. I'm nowhere near that sort of loss this week. It's been a while since I had a miracle week like that.
Doing a systematic purge of wardrobe. Any trousers that I no longer have to unbutton to take off no longer make the cut. Tops that are too baggy are out too. I no longer want to wear things that are unflattering so out they go. I bought a pair of size 18 trousers in ASDA, just plain black canvas jeans. They look good. And a size 20 top. They look great together with my green DMs. I'm wearing the ensemble now and I feel great. It's making me walk with my head held high and I have a smile on my face.
196.4lb
It's a loss of 2.6lbs. I didn't quite make it under fourteen stone, but I'm only half a pound away. I can't pretend I'm not disappointed, but it's still a good result, especially for a week when I went over by a couple of hundred calories on a couple of days. I need to watch that this week, not get cocky, or it will come back and bite me in the bum at my next weigh in.
In an effort to make myself start running (yes, I'm still wittering on about getting out running on a regular basis) I've ordered some proper K T tape. I've bought cheap stuff before, and it's been useful, so I thought I'd see if the brand name one, which is quite a bit dearer, is any better. I hope that spending the money will encourage me to actually use the darn stuff. It's stretch tape that you put around your joints if they give you pain when you exercise. There are various configurations for applications to knees especially, in order to give full or partial support. I used it for a few months when I was training for the marathon, and I found it very good. It's my left knee in particular which give me jip.
Both TMM and I are off today, so it feels like we're playing hookie on a school day. We got up late, went out for breakfast (more like lunch!) and then went for a gentle walk. There's a gorgeous walled garden near us, and we like to go in to it a few times a year, just to see how it's developing. It reminds me of my fave children's books, "The Secret Garden."
I ate a massive fry up, counted all the calories, and don't feel remotely guilty. Then our walk earned me a few exercise calories, but not many. It was just nice to get out in the air, on a lovely sunny afternoon. Even a little activity is better than none at all.
I'm feeling positive in general at the moment. My old Weightwatcher blog has encouraged me. Knowing that I'm not so far away from where I was then is great. I feel good about my chances of being slim by the time I sing at AM's wedding too. I bought a pair of trousers and a top on Saturday in the sale in M&S and they were a size 18. It's the first 18s I've bought in ages, and I was chuffed to bits when they fitted me. I'd love to be a 12 by the wedding. Fingers crossed I can stay motivated that long. At the moment, it doesn't feel like it will be a problem. If I could keep it together till then, I could get my dream of my gorgeous guitar looking massive on my newly slender body :-)